Weird weekend...bad day

The fact that my family is weird is not news to me. I was aware of that from a pretty young age. Well actually, I though I was weird and they were normal at first, but then I got it figured out. Anyway, they are weird, but this weekend took the cake. My cousin asked me if we could have a one night stand. Or kiss at the very least. He says he has had a crush on me since 1994. I am absolutely terrified. He and I have gotten along so well. I don't want to lose the relationship. It also scares me that while I said no immediately and did NOT give an inch...I was tempted. Now I'm left asking myself why I would ever be tempted by him? I think he would be a good kisser. He's a bad boy. It would be "shocking". He told me I have amazing willpower. Mostly I just don't know how to be bad even if I try.

St. Kate's sent me a rejection letter. Came home to that today. Suck.